People I’ve Cried In Front Of

Besides the obvious ones (friends and family) here is a list of the many different people I have cried in front of:

  • Hobby Lobby cashier
  • CVS cashier
  • Random CVS customers
  • Random Publix customers
  • K-mart cashier who asked me to donate to March of Dimes
  • My entire church
  • Many Hobby Lobby customers
  • Random ER doctor who happened to be pregnant (Her response: You REALLY need to talk to someone. In my defense, it was only a week after Lucy died)
  • Pretty much anyone that I pull up next to at a red light
  • Guy with his son at the train table at Barnes and Noble
  • Anyone who asks me how many kids I have
  • Woman next to me on the plane (She ended up telling me about her four miscarriages and the miscarriage ministry that she started at her church. She then held my hand and prayed for me as the plane was landing)
  • Barnes and Noble employee helping me look for a kid’s book on heaven to show the boys where their sister was
  • Our pediatrician (I loved his response: Well, you cannot question God. It is His decision and you have two healthy boys to be thankful for. You cannot question God)
  • Lots of moms at lots of different playgrounds
  • Liam’s teenage swimming teacher
  • Random lady in the bathroom
  • My OBGYN, MFM and countless other doctors and nurses
  • Everyone in the waiting room at the OBGYN
  • My German students
  • Lots of happy families at the Tennessee Aquarium on the 4th of July (I passed the “Nursing Mothers Room” and lost it)

These are just some of the times I’ve cried in front of people. How many times have I glared at people with a “I want to kill you” look on my face? But in reality, I don’t even see the person I’m glaring at. I’m looking right through them as I wonder how I’m going to get through the rest of my life without my daughter. I’m looking at the “Happy Father’s Day Daddy, from your daughter” cards and dying inside. Before losing Lucy, if I had run into my future self in the store I would have thought, “What is her problem?” Now I know. Maybe her problem is that her baby girl died. Or maybe her husband left her or her Dad just got diagnosed with cancer, or she got diagnosed with cancer or she just got her 20th negative pregnancy test. I know now not to judge someone by what I see. I have no idea what they are going through. The best solution? Treat everyone with love, treat everyone as if their daughter just died and you can’t go wrong.


3 thoughts on “People I’ve Cried In Front Of

  1. The older I become, the more I understand the importance of kindness. It is wonderful to receive, but it takes a lot of energy and spiritual strength to give. Only God can give us love to share.

  2. I love this! I have cried in front of many random people too. And I would’ve judged someone looking like I do now more harshly before this happened too. Guess that’s one silver lining. I especially probably scare people in cars near me as the car is often the place I’m alone and able to cry after being in public. Glad to know I’m not alone in my public displays 😉

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