Well, the year of the Nora, as I like to call it, is almost over. 2015 has been a year of healing and restoration. I will always remember it as the year my dreams came true, when God performed a miracle in our family.
Nora is now 5 months old and is doing great. She already has two teeth and is trying to sit and stand by herself, but has no interest in crawling. There haven’t been any lingering effects of the anti-kell antibodies and Nora hasn’t even had to have her blood drawn since Halloween. She is the sweetest, happiest baby. She loves people more than anything and is never as interested in the toy as she is in the person holding the toy. Nora LIVES for eye contact and a little bit of conversation. Nora is my medicine, my joy, my comfort. Her brothers fawn over her daily, reminding her constantly of how beautiful she is and how special she is. I know that God is using Nora to give us a glimpse of the joy and restoration we will feel in heaven when we get to fawn over Lucy and feel the comfort of her presence. We love having Nora here with us and every day that we get with her is a precious, unexpected gift.
We had some family photos taken over Thanksgiving and I noticed recently that in many of the pictures there is a beam of light shining directly on Nora’s face. It is such a perfect picture of who she is to us and what her name means. Light. Dawn breaking after the dark night.
I think of you all often…the people who prayed for us and supported us, my blog readers and all the people who helped us in so many different ways throughout 2015. You will always hold a special place in our family. I don’t know how we could have made it through this year without you. At the end of 2014 after our failed adoption I felt so disappointed and disgusted that people like Kailee and Peter existed in the world. The fact that someone could be so brutal and so heartless without remorse was depressing. But you all have renewed my faith in humanity and I have seen God’s goodness reflected through you. You have brought us so much hope. Thank you for supporting us along this journey and for sticking with us throughout this past year. I can’t wait to tell Nora one day about all the people who rallied together to help get her here. You will forever be a part of her miraculous story.
Even though our 2015 was a year of renewed hope and joy, I know that tragedy and devastation could be right around the corner. I have no idea what 2016 holds for me or for you, but I do know that God is there waiting.
Deuteronomy 31:8 The Lord Himself goes before you and will be with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid, do not be discouraged.
So, whether next year turns out to be a devastating, heart wrenching year like my 2013 or a year of miracles and hope like my 2015, I know that God will be with me through it all. That fills me with courage and hopeful anticipation going into this new year. I pray that all of you will draw close to God and feel His deep love for you in the year to come and that others will show you the same generosity and love that you have shown us over the past year.
Nora says “Thank you for your prayers, your support and for all the love you gave me this year.”
I love beginning the New Year by reading a post like this. Many blessings to you and your family. You are a perfect example of resilience amd hope.
Hi. I found your blog as I google-searched for stories of child-loss. I lost my daughter on December 3rd at 24 weeks after my water broke too early at just 17 weeks. In 2014, I lost twin boys at 20 weeks due to preterm labor. All of this after struggling with infertility for 6 years before finally getting pregnant with my boys.
My beautiful babies were all perfect, they were all born alive. My body failed them. I have been struggling so much. I do have a 13-yr old daughter from a previous marriage. She has helped keep me sane through this hell I have endured and she is my miracle.
I just wanted you to know that your testimony, your blog, your continued love for God, have all really touched me. I know that He led me to your blog right when I needed it the most. Thank you so much for sharing this. I am still suffering from my losses, even now the shock of losing my daughter is just starting to shed.
Thank you so much for sharing that with me. I am so incredibly sorry that you lost your sons and your baby girl. Nathanael, Isaiah and Callie, right? I read your blog after seeing your comment and I love your babies’ names. I love knowing the names of my daughter Lucy’s playmates. I can’t wait to meet them in heaven one day. You know, after reading your blog I just have this unshakeable sense that God is not done with your story yet. Actually, I’m SURE He’s not finished with your story. Can you email me so I can write you what I feel like I should share with you? I’m busy right now but hopefully will have more time to write back tonight. My email address is bethanysk55@yahoo.com
*** This may be coming to you twice as I’m not sure if maybe I accidentally deleted the first comment.
I found your blig after I Google-searched for stories of child-loss. I lost my daughter on December 3rd at 24 weeks after my water broke too early at just 17 weeks. I stayed on bedrest hoping and praying to get her to viability. 24 weeks was viability. She was born alive, pink, wiggling…. but she did not make it. In 2014, I lost twin boys at 20 weeks due to preterm labor. All of this after struggling with infertility for 6 years before finally getting pregnant with my boys.
My beautiful babies were all perfect, they were all born alive. My body failed them. I have been struggling so much. I do have a 13-yr old daughter from a previous marriage. She has helped keep me sane through this hell I have endured and she is my miracle.
I just wanted you to know that your testimony, your blog, your continued love for God, have all really touched me. I know that He led me to your blog right when I needed it the most. Thank you so much for sharing this. I am still suffering from my losses, even now the shock of losing my daughter is just starting to shed.